In a blink of an eye

In a blink of an eye, time pasts faster than we know it, faster than we want it to.

In a blink of an eye, we are sucked into the adult world.

In a blink of an eye, we worry about our future, what will become of us, what will happen.

In a blink of an eye, we realised our parents are getting older and it's time for us to act and be more grown up than before.

In a blink of an eye, a lot of things happen around me and makes me wonder why it happens. Yet, it makes all the changes in me. It has in fact, made me stronger. I need to be stronger to take care of my parents, to take care of my brother.

In a blink of an eye, I would graduate soon and see what awaits in the days/months/years ahead.

In a blink of an eye, I would see the world differently than how I see it before I graduate.

In a blink of an eye, I find myself growing up and wishing it would stop because adulthood is so much more harder than I've ever imagine. I have not even finish my University Life yet I felt that I should be an adult now. And yes, albeit the fact that I AM an adult already since I've in University now.

In a blink of an eye, I would be making serious, drastic, life changing decisions.

Am I ready for these? Honestly the thoughts scares me. Every piece of my bone, every piece of my organs - I'm scared. Every single part of me.

The responsibility as a elder sister to my brother, the responsibility as a sister, the responsibility as a daughter, a responsibility as a friend and if there's a possibility, the responsibility as a girlfriend/wife - Am I ready for all these?

Am
I
ready?

Sally's Treat & Birthday

Pictures Courtesy of Pam! Without her, this would be a pictureless blog post.

Sally brought us Damai Puri Resort
THANK YOU SALLY! *BIG HUG* :D

Pic grabbed from the internet cos we didn't manage to take picture here. The reason: Because we want to hide. The room was only for 2 people and there were 5 of us! haha~

uh ew. sorry not very good in posing like this. lol.

um yea. told you so. hahahahhaa.

Pamela my teman bergila and we are the background "dancer" in carol's camwhore picture!

Camwhore while waiting for our chance to sneak inside. shhh!

And enter the pool! :D

It was nice to play but the water kept going in my ear and nose. T_T Hate that part the most.

lol the 'love' pose and sexy legs...

I love pics like these THE MOST cos all of us are in it. *heart*

daughter, son-in-law, mummy ( my 2nd family) awesomeness!

Dearest daughter and me!

weeeeeeeeeeeeee~!

Before we go off for our Dinner...

Dinner time. all of us pretty girls! :D

T_T don't know why this simple picture makes me wanna cry T_T
I think it's because I miss them and also because I don't want my Uni Life to end.

make a wish babe! :) :) may your wishes come true! :D

Honestly if words can explain how awesome these few days was, I wish there is a word to express it but there isn't. All I can say is the I LOVE my friends so much and I DON'T WANT my university life to end =(

Thank you so so so so so much to Sally for bringing us here. These fond memories shall remain with me forever.

It's a bit sad though, I'm happy to be there and sad because in just few months we will go our own ways, yes, as sad as it sounds, it's reality. I don't want to face reality but it is how it is. T_T Ugh why am I so emo?! T____________T

Sorry for the delay for this post. I've been away in Kuching so couldn't update.

Oh dear, I think the hang out I had with my friends has made me quite emo. I have to stop writing now. It's late and I is very the emo now. Byes!

Home

I'm home! Hello Sibu! :)

I've got lots of things to blog about. But these posts are still pending cos I've got not enough nice pictures! Argh! I'm waiting for Pamela to send me some. Lol she's the camera girl. Sure got lots of lovely pictures.

So yea, I'll write as soon as I got them pictures!

In the meantime, here's a picture of Teddy relaxing at ______
*to be revealed in the next post* :P


Kinda shows how I am like at the moment... =)

Goodbyes are never easy

As we bid farewell to one of our housemate, friend and "sister", it made me realise how much time left we will have in our University.


In less than 6 months, we will go our own ways. We don't know what the future holds. It makes me so sad though I don't show it much. I really (times infinity) hope that we will still keep in contact with each other. That we will always find time for each other. It's a bit early to say this but I just want to say it anyways. haha..

Dear Chai Yung,

I hope you will get a job here in Kuching. I pray hard that you will get a job in Ernst and Young. You've been a wonderful helpful, cute, great listener and sweet friend. I'm so glad to have met you and I really hope to see you again.

Those pics you upload in facebook make me emo! T_T boo!!

I want to write more but I am so emo now I cannot write.. lol. sounds like I'm exaggerating but really, I'm not. =/

ok, to be continued...

I wait for Pam's picture then I update more.

Until then, toodles!

********UPDATED********

Just a few random pics. Some things we do before Chai Yung return to Sibu.

We went to damai. Pics are quite limited because they are all from my handphone. :P

Was bored waiting for them kayaking. lol.


It was so HOT! so hide under umbrella while waiting for them. :P
It's a rule for me. Camwhore only when I'm bored. and thus this pic.

And dinner at Kampung Buntal. Best seafood and cheap too! :D



Played the "basketball game" at Hock Lee. (No pictures for this cos we were too busy playing. lol)

Put your hands up and wave it like u just don't care!

I am finally freeeeee from exams! :D

Breathe in the 'feeling' of freedom

Sorry to all to all those who are still having your exams, I really need to write this post! I wish you all the best and don't lose your motivation to study. If there's some time left to study, just make full use of your time.

It has been, by far, the most hectic weeks of my University Life. Accounting Theory is all about reading, reading and more reading. If you're going to take Accounting Theory next semester, please take my advice to study from the begining of the semester to avoid rushing and stressing out at the end of the semester.

My lovely companion during exam period. :)
Sorry though, I shall not be needing you till winter semester.

I've never work so hard for any of my exams ever! Barely had enough sleep. Was so scared I'm going to fail T___T I even stayed up till 6am ok! (Effect of Ginseng Coffee) That was how scared I was.

Overall, I'm quite pleased with 2 of my final papers but not so pleased for my first paper. I believe that I will pass all my subjects this semester. I must put all my faith and trust in God. Amen :)

I have a whole lot of things to do. So far the start of freedom began with a nice, good long four hours of sleep. lol. And then Monopoly at night! :D


All thanks to Steph. It's quite a nice game but I get bored with it easily. :S It's just me. Seriously not quite a business student at all. boo!

Ok back to Uni Talk. I can't believe that I'm reaching the end of my 3 years of study. Some of my friends are going to graduate soon. To all those who are in your final semester, I know I'll miss all of you and I know it's a bit fast for me to say this since some of you haven't even sit for any of my finals paper yet! Iol. Chai Yung, I'll miss our laughing and crying, me and you emo-ing together and I really hope you'll get a job here in Kuching. :( I suddenly realise how time flies when you're going to graduate.

All of a sudden, I don't want my University Life to end!! I used to say I can't wait to graduate but seriously, now I wish I have more time. From now on, I should cherish every single, happy and sufferings altogether moments of my University Life. Oh gosh I feel so sadddddddd!! Just one and half more semester more to go! (Including Winter Semester)

I guess this post is a mixture of sadness and happy-ness.

Okay I'm don't know what else to blog about. So I'm off to do the things I've been refraining myself to do - watch WongFu Productions videos! And Mall World! hahaha Maureen, wait for me yea.. So many new stuff already.Tatas for now! =)

For What It's Worth

Today I went to Lions Nursing Home. Organized by CPA Club.

The experience I had there is beyond words. I visited another Old Folks Home before called Home of Peace. But the experience I had there was really different compared to what I experienced at the Lions Home.

The first thing I did was the usual thing that Volunteers do. Cleaning up and etc. This needs no further explanation.

The thing that had a huge impact on me the most is the feeding the Grandma moments and pushing the wheelchair moments. I've been having flashbacks on what I did today. This will be my very honest feelings so please excuse me if you find anything I say offensive or heartless. I also must remind you that I am no angel.

When I fed the Grandma today, which is kolok mee by the way, I remembered thinking "oh dear, so hard to cut this noodle. And why not I get to feed rice or something?" And then I got annoyed and incredibly angry with myself.

My good side went "What on earth are you thinking?! How can you be so utterly heartless, Amanda?! Have you no feelings? Do you have any idea what it's like to be in the Grandma's shoes? To be so helpless and frustrated because you want to do things yourself but can't cos you have to depend on others. "

I am a selfish person. No doubt about that. It's a good thing I have my conscience to remind myself why am I doing this. It's for Charity and to show them our love.

I also remember getting super frustrated because I can't understand what the Grandma is talking about. I end up answering yes to everything the Grandma says. Gosh! T_____T What if I said yes to something negative she said about herself? :( HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO STUPID?!

I'm supposed to feel good after doing this Charity work but for some reasons, I feel guilty. My selfish side is damn shameful and 100% incredibly spiteful! Being human is stupid sometimes. Seriously!

I saw the others going outside since the other grandmas don't need help feeding them. After I finished feeding the first grandma, I tried talking to her. I offered to bring her more water since she finished hers quite fast. I couldn't leave the Grandma No.1 so I stayed back and tried to talk to her again despite the fact that I barely understand what is she saying. :(

The second grandma, I didn't finish feeding her because the bus came and I have to go home. I remembered seeing one of my friends who haven't finish feeding one of the Grandma and continued on feeding her. She didn't mind staying back to feed her and follow other CPA member back. I salute her. I really do. I didn't do that. I walked away instead. And that is one of the shameful things that I did. I wished now that I continued on feeding her but of course, it's too late. I walked away because I really needed to go to the toilet badly and there, as you can see, once again, the selfish me. It's a downright embarassing and deceitful act.

It's all in the past now. What has happened today. What I did today. I wish I could turn back time. To change all things that needs to be changed. To help the grandmas and grandpas as much as I can.

There is one thing that I really enjoyed doing though. The singing and trying to cheer up the grandmas and grandpas. I was really happy to see that one of the grandma smiling widely at us as we sing. :D

Oh yea, one of the grandma is a Roman Catholic and she started singing one of our church songs and halfway through her singing, she started crying. It was depressing yet truly saddening to see her in that way. And she mentioned something about dying. I had no idea how to react. I was speechless. I remembered hating her children though. But perhaps I shouldn't really blame them. I need not be so judgemental.

Nevertheless, despite all of this, I think this was a very meaningful experience for me. From now on, I'm going to learn to be more selfless, to be more considerate of others. I hope I get another chance to go to the Nursing Home again. I want to do things correctly next time. I will even dance for them to cheer them up. I don't care how stupid I will look.

For what it's worth, I sincerely hope that I will be given the chance again to be able to give the Grandma and Grandpas all the love and care in this world.

Final Year

Ok obviously I quit the 30 days challenge. lol. I'm way to busy to blog about that.

I have no actual things to blog about. I want to complain about my workload but then that'll bore you cos Uni Life is rather routine like. Everything is the same. Tutorials, Assignments and more work. :(

Well it's already the mid-term break so I finally have "some" time to blog. Actually I should start working on my assignments but sigh. yeah. I wanna rest first. It has been a loooonnng week! T__T My exams was SUPER tough. I just wish that just once I will say that my exam is okay. Just once. Cos I realised I never said it's easy.

So as most of you know I have a subject this semester that requires me to blog. When my friends told me we are to blog I thought "oh really?! Awesome!!" That's what I thought to myself. I wasn't very worried cos I love to write and I have a blog and all that. But I was so wrong! I can sit in front of the laptop for hours and have no ideas how to start. :( I will have ideas flowing through my head but no idea how to start. For some reasons, the introduction is crucial cos it attracts readers to read. So yea, that's why I spent hours thinking how to start.

I can't seem to write any "intellectual" kind of posts. I think whether this is because throughout my school years, for my English essays, I will always write stories and not the kind that requires points. You know, the kind of essays that goes:

The school has been facing problem with students who "play truant". Explain the reasons caused by this and how the school can solve this issue.

I always have trouble selecting this kind of question because I will have no ideas and I will always opt for the one that requires me to write a story. If I did attempt such question, I would get lower grades that I will get for writing stories. :/ So most of the time I pray hard that my teacher will give a question that requires us to write stories. :P

There's also one thing that my school teachers used to ask us to do when in Secondary School. And that is summarise. I'm VERY BAD at summarising. lol. I like to write things in detail. No idea why but I do. I'm still learning how to NOT write a whole lot of junk in my work. I think it's also useful for paraphrasing when I come to Uni. The whole no plagiarism rule so yea, that's important.

Ok why am I writing about this. Perhaps it's the aftermath of writing my blog entry. I think I won't get a good grade this time. I don't even know if I fulfilled the requirements of the blog entry.

My blog post shall end abruptly cos I don't know how to end it. lol.