Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Let's talk about - Future

Heeeellllooo everyone.

Right now I'm at my father's office. Doing nothing at the moment. :S

*sigh

I haven't got a job for now. #unemployed. I hope it will not turn out to be #foreverunemployed

I'm going to UK in March. A short family holiday. As much as I'm looking forward to this trip, I'm worried that I can't get a job :( It's not easy. My results isn't marvelous until people would employ me on the spot or actually wait for me till I come back from my holidays. I knew these were the consequences I have to face yet, haih. Alright let's not get too emotional. Sorry that was the 'worry-wart' talking.

Anyways, I've been through lots of things in my mind. About what I want to do with my life. I don't want to be an accountant yet this is the career path I've chosen in the first place. So like it or not it's the path I have to at least try. This is why they say, you need an ambition or an aim for that matter, in life. Cause if you have nothing to aim for, life is just utterly pointless. I have an aim well a dream actually, and that is to be a writer. What is this - dream. I've been talking about it since forever but no actions taken to further this dream of mine. Sometimes I feel like this is no longer a dream of mine because I never take any actions to achieve it.

I knew I love to write and I knew that my English isn't perfect. I'm sure as you read this whole post you will find a few grammatical errors here and there. From primary school, I've already started to write but I tore my diary in a few pieces and threw it away before I got to secondary school. lol. It has too many awful memories and plus my idiot brother used to steal my diary and read it, that idiot! -_- grrr! But mind you I still remember those memories.

I want to write. Really I do. But there's no inspiration. So how can I? Honestly the truth is, I get inspiration everyday. But I don't know where and how to start. Sigh. I should start writing since I'm more free now as what my BFF said. I know. I should.

Being aimless in life is not a good thing. Somehow I understand why another of my BFF told me she still want to stay in university for just one more semester. She didn't want to graduate yet. At this moment, I'm feeling the same way.

OK have to go back to work now. Not exactly feeling that comfortable to blog in the office. no privacy lol. I feel as if my colleague is peeking at me (even though I know she isn't doing that), yet well, can't be too careful right? Gotta go. Belated B-day surprise post coming up next. And at the moment I'm reading an awesome book. Too good to put down. lol. So when I'm free I'm reading it. Thus I haven't been blogging lately. *confession Bye for now!

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