2013

Ok, i just realised this poor blog has been abandoned for so long. Almost a year to be exact.

I've been busy with so many things in my life. work, work and work. And life. And a person.

And thinking about future even more often nowadays.

And worrying how things will be like for our best-friendship.

And how things will change.

I don't really know the purpose of writing this blog post. I think I just want to update it a little bit.

Things are already changing around me.

I've begin to make plans for the future. I begin to think that I should learn to improve myself in performing my  job instead of complaining. Over and over again..

And so that shall be my new year's resolution. One of it anyways. I've got a really long list but I shall leave you all in suspense. lol.

Till then, I shall try to update my blog more often. :)

I got a job!

Okay honestly I should have written this post 2 weeks ago cause that's when I got a job offer! Although the salary is suppperrr low, I have to be grateful for it since they're going to sponsor my CPA paper. Don't know what made me changed my mind that this is what I want to do. Anyways decide later or regret later! I'm thinking of switching job though after this. Probably work in a bank or something. I know you're giving me a look of dismay because everyone knows that working in a bank means long hours of work. but seriously I think I need to earn more. It's funny how fate has it's own mind of it's own. A week after I got my job offer, Crowe Horwath called me up for an interview, needless to say I screwed up my chance of getting in that company. I was so shocked that I got the call that I stupidly let it slip that I've got a job already and plus I've signed the offer letter from another company already damn it! But after I talk to few of my friends about it, they urged me to call up the company and I went for the interview. I think my sub conscience took over because I think that as seriously THE WORST INTERVIEW I've ever gone through. I stuttered and was completely ugh I don't want to even think about it anymore. An even funnier thing happened because the next week, I met the guy who went for the interview with me that day( he was a Swinburne student as well, i don't know him but he was in one of my classes last time) with at The Spring and I asked him whether he got the job or not and he said yes, the lady called him and he is going to sign the offer letter soon fml. T_T So there the story of my life. T_T I would be lying if I say that I am not disappointed. I mean the difference in salary is RM500 and I totally ruined my chance. Sigh. Anyways, I'm trying not to be discouraged. I will still try to get a job there in the future, right one I have to focus on gaining experience. I WIll NOT GIVE UP *determined* Well I'm going to start working next month and honestly I am sooooo excited and I can't wait to start. 4th of June please come faster. I was thinking about uploading some pictures with this post but very hard to do since I'm blogging for Dad's iPad. :s Ok I want to go watch Korean drama now. This is what a TEMPORARY unemployed person always do. :) tatas!

It's Harder than I thought

I've been really busy lately because... I've been hunting for a job.

Oh gosh it is sooooo hard!!! I've been unemployed for a month now. I've got no luck in getting a job so far. I sent out God knows how many resumes already.

This is frustrating and depressing. ARGH! I shall not say anymore. I'm making myself more depressed than ever.

Let's talk about - Future

Heeeellllooo everyone.

Right now I'm at my father's office. Doing nothing at the moment. :S

*sigh

I haven't got a job for now. #unemployed. I hope it will not turn out to be #foreverunemployed

I'm going to UK in March. A short family holiday. As much as I'm looking forward to this trip, I'm worried that I can't get a job :( It's not easy. My results isn't marvelous until people would employ me on the spot or actually wait for me till I come back from my holidays. I knew these were the consequences I have to face yet, haih. Alright let's not get too emotional. Sorry that was the 'worry-wart' talking.

Anyways, I've been through lots of things in my mind. About what I want to do with my life. I don't want to be an accountant yet this is the career path I've chosen in the first place. So like it or not it's the path I have to at least try. This is why they say, you need an ambition or an aim for that matter, in life. Cause if you have nothing to aim for, life is just utterly pointless. I have an aim well a dream actually, and that is to be a writer. What is this - dream. I've been talking about it since forever but no actions taken to further this dream of mine. Sometimes I feel like this is no longer a dream of mine because I never take any actions to achieve it.

I knew I love to write and I knew that my English isn't perfect. I'm sure as you read this whole post you will find a few grammatical errors here and there. From primary school, I've already started to write but I tore my diary in a few pieces and threw it away before I got to secondary school. lol. It has too many awful memories and plus my idiot brother used to steal my diary and read it, that idiot! -_- grrr! But mind you I still remember those memories.

I want to write. Really I do. But there's no inspiration. So how can I? Honestly the truth is, I get inspiration everyday. But I don't know where and how to start. Sigh. I should start writing since I'm more free now as what my BFF said. I know. I should.

Being aimless in life is not a good thing. Somehow I understand why another of my BFF told me she still want to stay in university for just one more semester. She didn't want to graduate yet. At this moment, I'm feeling the same way.

OK have to go back to work now. Not exactly feeling that comfortable to blog in the office. no privacy lol. I feel as if my colleague is peeking at me (even though I know she isn't doing that), yet well, can't be too careful right? Gotta go. Belated B-day surprise post coming up next. And at the moment I'm reading an awesome book. Too good to put down. lol. So when I'm free I'm reading it. Thus I haven't been blogging lately. *confession Bye for now!

20th January

Twentieth of January 2012

The date I found out I've finally got through my 3 years of University Life.

It marks the end of my journey as a student and off to the working world.

The Learning Process never stops however.

Because I have to prepare myself to learn to face more challenges ahead.

Challenges I'm suddenly ready to face as soon as I found out I passed all subjects.

It gave me the confidence that I can do this. Come what may.

Oh I know, I've so many things to learn.

Learn to cope with stress, pressure, be more optimistic and controlling my emotions.

To learn to not care too much because a good friend of mine once told me, don't bother thinking too much. What's the point right? :)

As much as I love University Life,

I know I must go on with the next chapter. ;)

Now I have to learn to let go of the past and embrace the future.

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I won't expect you to be good to me so...

Accounting & Auditing world. Here I come!

Two Four

And, finally, I'm 24 years old. Not embarassed at all. Come on, let's face reality. We all get old eventually. I should quit denying it despite the fact that I don't like it.

Ah yes, the age I should graduate from University.

The age I should learn to be more grown up.

The age I should stop playing the sims social hah! Not a chance. LOL! :P Sorry, I still love that game too much to stop. Well, unless I'm too busy with my work then what choice have I got.

The age I should get my driving license T___T Gosh so embarassing! I should have gotten a driving license AGES ago!

The age I should learn to improve on my weaknesses.

The age I should learn not to expect too much in order to avoid disappointment (Yes, I'm such a coward :S )

The age I should learn to overcome stress and not let stress 'overcome' me.

And most importantly, the age I will leave my youth years behind me and prepare to work. T_T

Where will the future take me, I don't know. I'm as scared as hell but what can I do, I've got to face it one way or another. I'm not ready to be honest. But if I wait till the day I'm ready, I don't think that day will ever come. . So I better just face it when it's time to face it. I'm going to go for my very first interview on 16th of January. No matter what, I must be prepared for it. I don't want to end up totally clueless and stutter when I answer the questions. Please God, guide me through it. I put all my trust in You. Amen.

Out with the old, In with the New

New blogskin everyone!

It's a little different from the usual blogskin. Usually I just grab a ready-made blogskin. Now I decide to try to make it look more, urm, original? Well, actually it's not that original since I took the wallpaper from deviantart. lol. I shall remember to credit that person later. :)

Thought the wallpaper looks a bit dull so I edited it with XiuXiu. Best photo editer ever! Although I have to face some limitations to it since it's in Chinese, lol. I wish they would create an English version. Perhaps someday huh?

Tell me what you think about my blogskin. Does it look alright? Do you find it hard reading some of the things especially the About Me section and etc? If you do, let me know then I'll make the necessary changes. :)