Monday, August 22, 2011

Friendship

Hello blog.

I know I haven't been blogging lately. I just completed my winter semester. It has been, horribly, incredibly exhausting! My health has its ups and downs. Right now, I just hope everything will be fine. That's all I'm praying hard for. And for my results as well.

Anyways, there's a purpose why I'm writing. No. 1 cos I haven't been writing for since, wow, I can't even remember when I updated my blog. My gosh, has it been that long? o.o And No. 2, cos of friendship.

I have always valued friendship (and my family but that's another story. Now I shall talk about frienship first). I say things that I don't mean when I'm tired and because of this, it caused my friend to be hurt. (you know who you are and I'm sorry for it) She forgived me but I know she is still hurt. I know how sad and disappointed she is so I'm going to give her some time to cool down.

I never meant to do the things that I do. I appreciate my friends even though I never say it out loud. I appreciate the people around me even though I don't say it out. I just don't know how to express it. Perhaps growing up with a family where expressions of love and affection were rarely shown, has taught me to be "overly-defensive/highly egoistic" or "a cold person". I don't mean to say that my family don't show affections and etc, it's just that they show it in a different way, or indirectly that is.

It has left me with no idea how to show affections and gratitude. Which is why the way I show it, is through writing. I admit. I'm better at writing out my true feelings than saying them out. It takes a whole lot of courage for me to say how I feel.

To the friend (you know who you are and if you do read this post - to protect your privacy, I shall not name any names.) and all my other friends who reads this post, I want to make a public apology if I've said anything that hurt your feelings. Being human, I have my flaws and I hope I won't repeat the things that I did.

"It takes a friend to understand a friend." You may go, huh? what? Well, don't be like that. Because if you really get the meaning/this message of my phrase, that means you have a good/best friend around you.

I also want to emphasize that although I've hurt a lot of people around me, my actions are sincere. What I do, I do with my heart. I put effort and even if I'm tired, I would not trade another day for the things I do for both my friends and my family. =)


And finally, thank you. Thank you for being a great friend.