Let's talk about - Future

Heeeellllooo everyone.

Right now I'm at my father's office. Doing nothing at the moment. :S

*sigh

I haven't got a job for now. #unemployed. I hope it will not turn out to be #foreverunemployed

I'm going to UK in March. A short family holiday. As much as I'm looking forward to this trip, I'm worried that I can't get a job :( It's not easy. My results isn't marvelous until people would employ me on the spot or actually wait for me till I come back from my holidays. I knew these were the consequences I have to face yet, haih. Alright let's not get too emotional. Sorry that was the 'worry-wart' talking.

Anyways, I've been through lots of things in my mind. About what I want to do with my life. I don't want to be an accountant yet this is the career path I've chosen in the first place. So like it or not it's the path I have to at least try. This is why they say, you need an ambition or an aim for that matter, in life. Cause if you have nothing to aim for, life is just utterly pointless. I have an aim well a dream actually, and that is to be a writer. What is this - dream. I've been talking about it since forever but no actions taken to further this dream of mine. Sometimes I feel like this is no longer a dream of mine because I never take any actions to achieve it.

I knew I love to write and I knew that my English isn't perfect. I'm sure as you read this whole post you will find a few grammatical errors here and there. From primary school, I've already started to write but I tore my diary in a few pieces and threw it away before I got to secondary school. lol. It has too many awful memories and plus my idiot brother used to steal my diary and read it, that idiot! -_- grrr! But mind you I still remember those memories.

I want to write. Really I do. But there's no inspiration. So how can I? Honestly the truth is, I get inspiration everyday. But I don't know where and how to start. Sigh. I should start writing since I'm more free now as what my BFF said. I know. I should.

Being aimless in life is not a good thing. Somehow I understand why another of my BFF told me she still want to stay in university for just one more semester. She didn't want to graduate yet. At this moment, I'm feeling the same way.

OK have to go back to work now. Not exactly feeling that comfortable to blog in the office. no privacy lol. I feel as if my colleague is peeking at me (even though I know she isn't doing that), yet well, can't be too careful right? Gotta go. Belated B-day surprise post coming up next. And at the moment I'm reading an awesome book. Too good to put down. lol. So when I'm free I'm reading it. Thus I haven't been blogging lately. *confession Bye for now!

Final Year

Ok obviously I quit the 30 days challenge. lol. I'm way to busy to blog about that.

I have no actual things to blog about. I want to complain about my workload but then that'll bore you cos Uni Life is rather routine like. Everything is the same. Tutorials, Assignments and more work. :(

Well it's already the mid-term break so I finally have "some" time to blog. Actually I should start working on my assignments but sigh. yeah. I wanna rest first. It has been a loooonnng week! T__T My exams was SUPER tough. I just wish that just once I will say that my exam is okay. Just once. Cos I realised I never said it's easy.

So as most of you know I have a subject this semester that requires me to blog. When my friends told me we are to blog I thought "oh really?! Awesome!!" That's what I thought to myself. I wasn't very worried cos I love to write and I have a blog and all that. But I was so wrong! I can sit in front of the laptop for hours and have no ideas how to start. :( I will have ideas flowing through my head but no idea how to start. For some reasons, the introduction is crucial cos it attracts readers to read. So yea, that's why I spent hours thinking how to start.

I can't seem to write any "intellectual" kind of posts. I think whether this is because throughout my school years, for my English essays, I will always write stories and not the kind that requires points. You know, the kind of essays that goes:

The school has been facing problem with students who "play truant". Explain the reasons caused by this and how the school can solve this issue.

I always have trouble selecting this kind of question because I will have no ideas and I will always opt for the one that requires me to write a story. If I did attempt such question, I would get lower grades that I will get for writing stories. :/ So most of the time I pray hard that my teacher will give a question that requires us to write stories. :P

There's also one thing that my school teachers used to ask us to do when in Secondary School. And that is summarise. I'm VERY BAD at summarising. lol. I like to write things in detail. No idea why but I do. I'm still learning how to NOT write a whole lot of junk in my work. I think it's also useful for paraphrasing when I come to Uni. The whole no plagiarism rule so yea, that's important.

Ok why am I writing about this. Perhaps it's the aftermath of writing my blog entry. I think I won't get a good grade this time. I don't even know if I fulfilled the requirements of the blog entry.

My blog post shall end abruptly cos I don't know how to end it. lol.

Ok obviously I quit the 30 days challenge. lol. I'm way to busy to blog about that.

I have no actual things to blog about. I want to complain about my workload but then that'll bore you cos Uni Life is rather routine like. Everything is the same. Tutorials, Assignments and more work. :(

Well it's already the mid-term break so I finally have "some" time to blog. Actually I should start working on my assignments but sigh. yeah. I wanna rest first. It has been a loooonnng week! T__T My exams was SUPER tough. I just wish that just once I will say that my exam is okay. Just once. Cos I realised I never said it's easy.

So as most of you know I have a subject this semester that requires me to blog. When my friends told me we are to blog I thought "oh really?! Awesome!!" That's what I thought to myself. I wasn't very worried cos I love to write and I have a blog and all that. But I was so wrong! I can sit in front of the laptop for hours and have no ideas how to start. :( I will have ideas flowing through my head but no idea how to start. For some reasons, the introduction is crucial cos it attracts readers to read. So yea, that's why I spent hours thinking how to start.

I can't seem to write any "intellectual" kind of posts. I think whether this is because throughout my school years, for my English essays, I will always write stories and not the kind that requires points. You know, the kind of essays that goes:

The school has been facing problem with students who "play truant". Explain the reasons caused by this and how the school can solve this issue.

I always have trouble selecting this kind of question because I will have no ideas and I will always opt for the one that requires me to write a story. If I did attempt such question, I would get lower grades that I will get for writing stories. :/ So most of the time I pray hard that my teacher will give a question that requires us to write stories. :P

There's also one thing that my school teachers used to ask us to do when in Secondary School. And that is summarise. I'm VERY BAD at summarising. lol. I like to write things in detail. No idea why but I do. I'm still learning how to NOT write a whole lot of junk in my work. I think it's also useful for paraphrasing when I come to Uni. The whole plagiarism so yea, that's important.

Ok why am I writing about this. Perhaps it's the aftermath of writing my blog entry. I think I won't get a good grade this time. I don't even know if I fulfilled the requirements of the blog entry.

This blog entry shall end abruptly cos I don't know how to end it. lol.

Happy New Year two-oh-one-one!

Happy New Year!

2010 has been quite rough on me. But it has some good times too!

Bad is that I failed my FIS for the second time. Good is that I did 10xxx much better! :D Thank you Mother Mary & God! :D

Another good thing is that I visited the UK, visited my Aunty & family, sis graduated, went to Paris and London. woots! :D

Paris


The Eiffel Tower - Obviously my fav. place cos I have super many pics of the tower.


Also it's quite hard to get the perfect shot of the Eiffel Tower -_-"

Notre Dame and it's awesomeness

Laziness makes me combine everything together *random*





Musée du Louvre where the Mona Lisa painting was kept :)



Lil Birdie on Statue's head lol.

I shall learn how to play with xiu-xiu more. lol! I get nicer pictures. :)

Okay this is supposed to be a new year post but I blogged about Paris instead! oopsy!

I hope 2011 would be a much better year. I shall try to be more optimistic. That shall be my one and only new year's resolution. Being positive affects EVERYTHING that I do so just this one thing would be enough for me :)

Home!

I'm home! :D

I think i've lost the writing mojo. I rarely update my blog nowadays. *sigh* I don't know why. I hope it comes back cos I know I love writing (and complaining) lol.

Anyways, coming soon will be an update of my b-day surprise. I was super super tired that day! I think I disappoint my friends cos I look like I'm in no mood :( I feel super guilty bout this. :(

Honestly, from the bottom my heart, I appreciate what you guys did for me! The early-bday surprise was really nice girls!! :D I really LOVE you all so much. And I LOVE the present! I love having able to celebrate will all of you since I've never celebrated with you all. :) it was indeed a really sweet surprise. I know I didn't express it that day, but my exhausted-ness took over my feelings. really so soo soooo sorry to you all!! T_______________T

I'll post a nice post on this later on. Must fully concentrate on writing this post. hehe!

tatas for now!

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I'm actually very sleepy so that's why I can't be bothered to think of a blog title, thus the lame and obvious name of this post.

The worst thing about Insomnia is that it affects your studies and just imagine how ironic it is since your studies itself is the one that causes Insomnia. :(

When I have worries, I can't sleep.

I'm worried I can't pass Corporate Accounting. I don't want to experience the bad experience that I had with Financial Information System. No more repeating and failing.

I will pass
I will pass!
I can do this!
I shall NOT fail!
I shall NOT think negative!
I must not let my own stupid, senseless negative thoughts bring me down!
NO MORE FAILING!
NO MATTER HOW HARD IS THIS STUPID COURSE (I'M CURSING NOW COS I'M SO FED UP), I WILL GET THROUGH IT!!

I'm just really tired of failing and I feel so stressed out and depressed whenever I think of it :(((

haih, better go try and go to sleep now. It's 2.30am and I've got to wake up at 7am. Nites.

woo hoo (note the sarcasm)

Macroeconomics Workshop and Assignment due

NEXT WEEK.

Enough said!

I

am

so

tired......................................... and sleepy......... and depressed.

Argh i hate uni!

and then later on I will love it again.

and miss doing assignments during holidays.

Am I stupid or what? -_______________-

A new Acne has formed.

bye that's all. I just want to blab some nonsense.

Acceptance

I've finally accepted The Ugly Fact that I failed. Again.

Well, no point feeling sorry for myself now. I must gain all the courage I have left and pull up my stockings.

This post is dedicated to all of you who've helped me through this most difficult moments of my life. My friends and my family =D You all are the best! You know who you are =))) Thanks so much! Without you all, I don't think I could have pulled through. It was definitely one of the worst time of my life. LOVE you all!

Pic taken from DeviantArt =) Credits goes to this person! love this pic! :D
Got clouds! My fav!

Good news is I feel I've returned to my normal self. I actually thought I will never smile again, I will never laugh again, I'll be super serious Amanda until you all won't even recognize who's standing in front of you. >_< yes, that was how horrible the results were to me. Thank God I'm not turning into that person.

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Ok, some random pics that I found in my handphone!

Steph, Carol and Sally. Not exactly candid as you can see =P

That time we just finish our Karaoke session at K-box. Wondering why are they dressed up like that? lol that's because we all just finished playing Badminton and went straight to K-box. Crazy much? Well, exams does that to us. :)

My cousin's baby, Baby Bernita? wah i just realised i dono how to spell her name T_T

my own baby! =D drat this pic cant see her new pretty pink necklace.
"I'm so shy" mewmew blushed as she meowed those words.

She actually look damn annoyed in this pic. I forced her to take pic when she want to sleep. Cos i want to take pic of her in her pretty pink necklace. She refused to look at the camera. Ungrateful baby! Tomorrow no need to eat! *fake angry face at mewmew*


Urm not-so-nice pic of myself in some toilet.

I loved my lashes that day so I actually camwhored with it. -.-" I think it was 175 degree's toilet lol. I don't want to rotate it cos I don't think it's a good pic of me. That way you all won't really see properly how funny i look. :P

aww.. cute rite? I think it was some doodle on some seating place at Bukit Aup. So obvious this pic super old already. I think it was taken in 2007/2008 cos that was the last time I went to Bukit Aup.

lol I think Diana ask me to take this pic cos of the words 'Super Chien'

Oh look at those pretty lights! Huge popcorn symbolises the MBO cinemas. :)

Okies, no more pics. Luckily. Cos it's getting late. Time for bed! Nite nite all!

Breakdown

I don't think I will update my blog that often anymore until my coming semester's finals are over.

It's time to get serious. This time, i mean it.

I have enough of myself. Enough of failure. Enough of feeling the aftermath of failure. ENOUGH!

So as much as I love writing here, I have to decrease updating my blog.

The failure this time, is the final straw. I am truly disappointed in myself. Words cannot even describe how sad and angry I am at myself at this moment.

Worrywart

Worries
( Not in sequence of level of worriness - all of these are something that I'm highly worried about)

1. Worried that I won't pass all my modules.

2. Worried that even though I can complete all the driving lessons but I can't sit for the Driving test by JPJ cos I need to go back to Kuching by March 7. T_T So most probably I will take the Driving Test in April during my mid-sem break. By then, I'm very much afraid that I will forget how to drive already -sigh-

3. I haven't tried driving Manual at all so far. Fear that I can't reach the pedals, my feet not strong enough/unable to control the Clutch/Accelerator.

4. Worried whether I can go to Australia or not.

5. Extremely worried about my results.

6. Worried about my future since my results in Uni isn't exactly GREAT but entirely the opposite instead.

7. Worried I will get bored with Accounting when I work as an accountant in future. (yeah yeah i know chartered accountant high salary blah blah blah, i'm fully aware of that.)

8. Worried how am I going to study in Australia with my health problems. -sigh- nevertheless, i really, really want to go to Australia too =/

9. Worried whether I can get through all my subjects in this coming semester. It'll be a whole lot harder.

10. SOSOSO worried about FIS results and other results as well *scared like what* (yea i know i wrote this already but nevermind, i want to write it again cos for now this is what I'm MOST worried about)

11. Can I just not look at my result slip?!?!?! T____T

12. Worried whether selecting Finance as my minor is yet another one of my biggest regrets in my life.

Well, that's the end of my list so far. I actually thought I got 5 worries only but as i started to list them out only i realised that there's actually more than i thought =_=

Okie in order to make this post less depressing, let's play a little imagination game yea. :)

[Diana a.k.a. Deh Nah, in case you're very stress in your exams, you can play this game for fun! :D I'm so kind right, create a game for you to play....? OK la, it's a pretty lame game but just play lah.. HEHE! others can play also if you're as 'chiak pa eng'(too free)/too bored as I am. ]

what can you spot among these clouds? =)

Ready to imagine?? ok,start! scroll down only when you're ready yea? :)

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-end- Here's my guess! look at the circled icon. :D

Lookies!! It's a cute little poodle's head. teehehe.. =D

Oh-oh here's another one, well this pic la, I tried to take the "poodle's head" again but the clouds moved a bit already so looks a bit different.

uncircled pic, give you time to imagine first. =P Don't scroll down yet. just focus on the pic above.

Circled!

It kinda looks like Jughead from Archie's Comics. Jughead without his crown and with very curly looking hair, hehe.. XD He's also probably imagining that clouds are burgers or something. Got the sunlight effect also ok?? :D :D :D Drat, imagining the clouds like this makes me miss reading Archie Comics, =.=|||

OK. Obviously I'm a tad bit bored so even got time to create lame games like this >_<

Ok, don't know what else to blog already. Byes now!

two-o-one-o

Resolutions for 2010

1. Learn how to drive
2. Teach myself how to love accounting -seems highly impossible but I will try not to hate it
3. Not to go to lousy New Year Eve's Party this year. Last year's one was horrendous! Awful singing and lame entertainment -The organiser got someone to dress up as Tarzan & Jane and Oh gosh just thinking about it makes me feel queasy. argh! And no, I didnt take any pictures of them cos it's not worth the space in my camera phone. I'm so glad I didn't stay till midnight! I couldn't stand the extremely awful entertainment that I had to go and stand outside on my own. Yes, that is how horrible it was. No, I will NOT say that at least the organiser tried to make it more entertaining cos seriously, it WASN'T. Food was oh so YUCK! (I'm not being picky. Trust me, the food was the worst food I've EVER tasted and the worst part of it all is that it costs my dad RM500, wth! [ok this one not really a resolution but oh well, it's a resolution to me. hehe.]
4. Learn how to use my make up properly - learn how to use eyeshadow.
   
5. Pray More, Play Less
6. Try to have slimmer hips
7. Train Roxy and Max how to sit, shake hand, stay and stand.

Roxy & Max
-with their puppy dog eyes aww x)

For now these are all of it. I can't seem to think of any more at the moment. :S

Oh more pictures coming later. I'm too lazy to upload them also. lol. I want to play Farmville! :S I'm addicted to another facebook game T_T see what boredom does to a person *sighs*

Just Because

I'm here just because I don't know what else to do. I'm so bored. And I haven't been updating lately cos I've been too busy watching korean dramas. :S Oh and also cos I don't have proper internet connection back at home. =.= I miss Wimax like crazy. I'm now actually using my Dad's Broadband. Otherwise, there's no chance for me to online at all. hmph!

Alright honestly I have no clue what I want to blog about. Just thought that it's time to update my blog. Hehe. So anyways, I'm just going to be random.

I've finally decided to minor is Finance. I have a feeling I'll regret it but what the heck, my future is more important.

* The cute face is there cos I want to block my details*

I miss The Spring

My BFF just went to Singapore today =( Sure going to miss her lots. Couldn't spend much time with her though I was in Kuching cos of the hectic life in Uni. -.-
Lollipops kiosk from 'upper' point of view

My Destress Place

Xiu-Xiu is SO FUN! Xiu-xiu-ed Steph's Hair to Green Colour and mine is Blonde. In real life, I would never dare to dye my hair this colour :X

I actually really did dye my hair tho. I dyed it Velvet Brown. :) Step was my hairstylist :D :D Only dare to reveal now cos Mum knows it so it's safe to blog about it here. :P

This is the end product of Velvet Brown =) I think the colour has faded a bit now.

Kuching City View - taken quite a long time ago but I only post it up now. I LOVE the clouds. I LOVE the sky. Oh so calm and peaceful *sigh* I want to be a bird so I can feel how the clouds feel like. I'm pretty sure it just feels like air tho. =S

Remember in my old blog, I once mentioned that I took pic with "Santa Claus" for the first time in my life? And I said I will post it up? Well, here it is. lol that was in year 2008. :P The pic is kinda blur cos I took a pic of that pic. Confused? I think you're all smart to figure it out yes?

Right I think I'm done here. Good nite everyone. Or rather good morning since it's pass midnight already. =x

P.S: Christmas is near but I don't really feel the joys of Christmas yet =/ I hate Drama at home =.=

Sushi Frenzy

Never in my life have I eaten so many Sushi-s at one go.


Mainly it's because it costs wayyyy to much. But this time it's different cos all of the above only costs RM2 per plate :D :D :D I didn't want to go at first cos i think I've already spent a bit too much this month but this is something that shouldn't be missed. :D

So anyways, I've done my:
FIS assignment
MDM assignment
Moral Studies assignment

All that is left is my E-business assignment. :( and it looks like it's a lot of work. I'm very worried about my final exams. I don't know how to plan my time. Since I need to concentrate on assignments too. I'm afraid I will fail my Company Law, My FIS and My MDM.. T___T

*sigh* I feel like this teddy bear on the window sill. =/Except in my mind, the sun is not there. It's more like a dark, cloudy day.

Hmmm... Ok la, I admit, I'm being partly emo so that I can post this teddy picture above :P Must have reason to post picture like this. tee hee~

But okay, seriously I AM INCREDIBLY worried about my Final Exams. I know I shouldn't be wasting my time blogging here etc etc but don't tell me that cos I already know so. I just can't help writting what I feel so here I am. :)

Alright, I think i'll go find some information for my e-business assignment now. Byes~ enough talking for now.

I'm addicted...

To CAFE WORLD!
And I want you to be addicted too :P
which is why I'm promoting it here. lalalalala lol~
Click ~here~
Don't forget to Be My Neighbor okay? *big grin* Do send me an invite to be your neighbor! :D

Okays, byebye. Gotta go play Cafe World and study my Company Law and do my MDM assignment! T_T

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Emo Song for Emo Me (and you if you're emo too) Cos I think I will be having an Emo days ahead. (exams and assignments *sigh*) It's a lovely song tho :D love it lots! Sounds familiar? Well, it's the OST for Bride Wars. =)

Pretty

I'm too lazy/tired to think of words for my title so just decided to keep to one word only.

Nail Art. Pretty is it not? ;)

Cost me RM 3 though T_T For just that one nail. But I'm satisfied with the results :D
I know it's kinda weird to do only one nail but imagine if i do all my fingernails RM3x10=RM30!
I can't allow myself to spend too much on something like that (unless i work lah). The real colour is nicer than the picture actually. The background is actually of a lighter green colour.

I LOVE the new cinema in Kuching. MBO is great! And it's sooo near to my apartment. Just about 5 minutes walk to the cinema. lol. =P Didn't take pictures of it though. Cos we were already late for the movie. We watched UP! It was................. beyond amazing! Best RM7 I've ever spent on a movie. *Big grin* Definitely worth it.

END OF BLOG POST.

Too little time

There's so much things to do. I even don't have the time to go to Facebook anymore.

The workload this semester is practically like 3 times more than last semester.

I'm hanging on but the pressure that I should do much better than last semester (for FIS especially) is getting to me.

I have 2 mid-term exams on 26th September. What makes it worst is that both are the toughest subject to me so far. FIS and Management Decision Making. T_T

I'm too tired to blab more now. Need to sleep too 'cause I have morning class.

Paranoid Much?

I don't really know what to blog about.

So I decided to be random.

Well, okay maybe not so random cos what I'm about to blog about is something serious. And actually I didn't think of blogging about it till Maureen mention it in the blog. Something about the word 'Hygiene' made something go click in my brain and I realised - " Hey, I got something serious and important to blog about."

I think the pictures above and the word below says it all.

H1N1

Be very careful and take really good care of yourselves everyone! Try to avoid crowded areas.

P.S: Maureen, I think when I commented in your blog I said I will blog about it some other time, but end up I blog about it right after I commented. Lol. It's just that when I get the feeling to blog, I MUST blog no matter what or else I can't sleep.

P.P.S: 2nd week of new semester is so much busier, so much harder, so much more tiring. *sigh*

It's been a while

... since I updated my blog.

Been extremely busy now that we're all in a new place. Need to spend a lot of $$$ these days. Books this semester are super expensive T___T All of them costs more than RM100. *sigh* Now hunting for second hand original text books. But then even though can find those sort of books, it still costs a fortune.

Anyways.. I love the new place we're staying at. :D It's so comfortable and very home-y. Unfortunately, we can't seem to use the washing machine. Mainly cos it is too dirty on the inside. We still need to wash it. So I have no choice but to bring my clothes to Laundry Service. More money. =_=

Moving out from hostel is really harder than I thought. I'm actually spending more than I usually spend already and it's only Week 1. =/

Tutorial Registration this semester was more organized. I think mainly it is because the Student Admin are more strict after what happened last semester. It's a good thing. But bad thing is that we can't really get the exact time and day-slot that we want. Oh well, we can't always have it all, I guess.

Hmm.. new semester.. How do I feel about it? Nervous, anxious, scared and a little bit stressed out already. There is more pressure now that I'm going to repeat one of the module. I must try my best to do much better this semester. I should not have high expectations for my grades but then surely we all tend to want the best and better grade. Therefore, I really hope I will do much better this semester. I think most of my time will be spent at the library now that we all need to wait for each other to finish class only then we will go back. ( save petrol, save time, save energy.) We seriously need to get use to this. It's only been Week 1 and we are all really tired already. >_<

Master Bedroom toilet sink. Nice but I can't see myself in the mirror. :(

Shower Room

A glimpse of how the laundry room looks like.

Okay, I think I need to go and take a nap now. Pretty tired. I was too full just now so don't feel like resting yet.

Just quit calling already!

The other day I got this phone call from a guy. I have no idea who he is.

Then the next thing I knew, he start to sms me in Mandarin. And of course I have no idea what is he writing. Then after that he called me. I told him I don't know how to speak Mandarin and my Mandarin is very bad. He said " Ahya, Nevermind. Just cincai say also can.." =_=" He then proceed to ask a bunch of ridiculous questions like do you have boyfriend lah, how old are you lah.

I replied "No, I don't have a boyfriend. Cos I need to concentrate on my studies first and I have no time for such thing." I was hinting I'm not interested already. The main reason I'm saying that is because for one thing he is a complete stranger.

Then he asked me where I stay in Kuching. ( He's from Kuching) I don't want to answer but he's keep persuading me to say where I live and why I don't want to tell. I got annoyed and retorted " Uh... I don't know who are you. What for I want to tell you where I stay???"

I was curious where he get my number from so I asked him. He replied "Oh I was calling my friend but I end up with your number lor" I went "o_O oh ok"

So okay. Nevermind about that. I did one extremely stupid thing. There's this one time that he called me again and I rejected his phone call. I really don't want to answer his phone calls anymore. But then he kept calling and then.... I stupidly and accidentally called him back. The thing is I had no idea it was me who called him back. I thought it was him who called! No, I'm not kidding. I really am that blur. And that time I was talking to Mum so I was distracted too. Haih. So i "answered the phone call" and proceed to tell him off but I got nervous and ended up being friendly! T__T Which also reminds me that I wasted RM1 something of my credit. I rather use that money to call my BFFs or my sister in the UK.

*sigh* It all happened since Tuesday, I think. So anyways, I always reject his phone call ever since. The problem is.. he still calls me. Today I think he called 3 or 4 times. I rejected two of his phone calls. His first two phone calls I didn't hear cause I was having my dinner. He just called me few minutes ago. At 11 something. =_= And i reject those phone calls again.

I think he's getting the wrong idea because first of all, I did call him back. But NOT because I wanted to!! I accidentally call him back. Perhaps I should tell him that the next time he calls. >:( Argh!! Why did I do stupid things like that in the first place??

Now all I want and wish is for him to STOP CALLING!! ARGHHHH!! So frustrating got people like this ok..

Should I or Should I not?

I'm thinking whether I should do something to my hair again.

It's annoying me. So messy. T_T And it feels like I'm having a broom (the type that is made of 'lidi' and some strands of 'lidi' falls-off-each-time-you-sweep kind of broom) as my hair.

I feel like cutting it shorter. The haircut I had wasn't the type that I had in mind. But to tell you the truth, I dare not try the hairstyle that I had in mind. But now I'm actually having second thoughts about that. Perhaps I should just follow the type of hairstyle/haircut that i want. =/

I feel like doing rebonding too. That way I won't have the 'broom type' kinda of hair. But then what if it looks too flat and awful. eeps!

I'm still deciding whether I should do something about it or not. I'm afraid that if I do, I'll look even worse :(

Urgh! I hate making decisions. =__=