20th January

Twentieth of January 2012

The date I found out I've finally got through my 3 years of University Life.

It marks the end of my journey as a student and off to the working world.

The Learning Process never stops however.

Because I have to prepare myself to learn to face more challenges ahead.

Challenges I'm suddenly ready to face as soon as I found out I passed all subjects.

It gave me the confidence that I can do this. Come what may.

Oh I know, I've so many things to learn.

Learn to cope with stress, pressure, be more optimistic and controlling my emotions.

To learn to not care too much because a good friend of mine once told me, don't bother thinking too much. What's the point right? :)

As much as I love University Life,

I know I must go on with the next chapter. ;)

Now I have to learn to let go of the past and embrace the future.

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I won't expect you to be good to me so...

Accounting & Auditing world. Here I come!

Farewell 1B

Here's a post I wrote when we first moved in. Gosh, time flies. *Click here* Just so you know, we actually broke rule number 4, 5 and 6! LOL. Oh and I should warn you that this post is combined with camwhore pictures. lol. We were so innocent back then!

As we bid farewell to 1B, I realise that we also bid farewell to our Uni years.


2 and a half years in that apartment. How can we forget all those memories?

This is the place where we crammed for our final exam...

The picture on the bottom right, yes, that's my studying place. very messy i know.

Couldn't resist taking pictures of us (I'm excluded since I'm the camera lady. lol.) cramming for our final exam.

This is the place where we...

*Do our make up
*Do our facial routine
*Helped our friends with their make up (remember that time we helped Dara's friends with their make up - well, I wasn't helping much. Just helped by checking the eye shadow colour. Applying the make up is all Steph and Chai Yung work.)
*Blow Dry our hair
*Curl our hair
*Do our random hairstyles when we're bored (Chai Yung!)

This is where Steph, Sally and I (teddy too) would share our crazy moments together, share our secrets, quarrel, argue, everything...

*sigh* I will miss this bed ;(

And finally.. This is the place where we...

*Prepared so many yummy food
*Made KimChi for the FIRST TIME!
*My friends prepared meals for me cos they knew my health wasn't doing so well ^^ You all are so awesome *heart*
*Cooked Porridge for anyone who isn't feeling well
*Spent so much time cleaning the kitchen too (EW!)
*Left so many expired canned food in the cupboard and end up we have to throw them (students, sigh, they never learn do they? tsk tsk.. :P)

Oh we had so many, many, many memories.. We celebrated teddy's Birthday, Pamela's Birthday, rehearsed for Capstone 1 presentation (Steph and I) and SO much more!

Well, 1B of Kenyalang Court, I had lots of memories together with you. It's time to leave and prepare to work. The thought of working scares me a lot. I wasn't scared at first but I am now. With the experience I had from University Life, I hope I'm prepared to work. Writing this post makes me sad again, somehow. =(

I've got to go now. Time for bed. Good night!

Exam Period

I know I haven't been blogging in ages! I feel like this is the longest since I last updated my blog, sorry dear blog.

The last time I blogged was in September. Seems like I've lost the inspiration to write. The last "blog" I wrote was for my Industry Consulting Project a.k.a. Final Year Project. Don't get me started on how stressful it was.. Urgh!

Anyways, I'm about to sit for the final 2 papers of my University life. On the 13 and 14 of December to be exact. Therefore, I felt like this is something to blog about. Yea, wow rite? 3 years passed by just like that.

Also means I'm going to move out.
BFFs going to move out.
#damnemo

Honestly, I don't really have the mood to study. But have to force myself. I don't want my university life to end. But gotta move on with life huh? =(

On a completely unrelated note or maybe related la, I don't know.

Here's some pictures of us while we wait for our noodle at the INFAMOUS-NEED-TO-WAIT-ONE-HOUR-PLUS-PLACE.

You only get to see pictures like this on my blog cos I won't post them up on facebook.

pam

me

Steph

my bro - =_=" haih. asked him to show bored faced he smiled instead

Chaiyung - control 'ayu' lol

Finally, Teddy emo. cos I'm emo. pfft.

Okay, even though I really want to continue to blog, I've got to continue studying this:

yes, exactly how my Advanced Finance textbook looks like.

Haih, regrets taking finance as my minor now. I knew I would regret it when I select it as my minor. God knows why I still pick it. #imustbecrazy

I should blog more right? I just realised I was pretty active in blogging in 2009.

Right, well. ADVANCED FINANCE! bye now!

Friendship

Hello blog.

I know I haven't been blogging lately. I just completed my winter semester. It has been, horribly, incredibly exhausting! My health has its ups and downs. Right now, I just hope everything will be fine. That's all I'm praying hard for. And for my results as well.

Anyways, there's a purpose why I'm writing. No. 1 cos I haven't been writing for since, wow, I can't even remember when I updated my blog. My gosh, has it been that long? o.o And No. 2, cos of friendship.

I have always valued friendship (and my family but that's another story. Now I shall talk about frienship first). I say things that I don't mean when I'm tired and because of this, it caused my friend to be hurt. (you know who you are and I'm sorry for it) She forgived me but I know she is still hurt. I know how sad and disappointed she is so I'm going to give her some time to cool down.

I never meant to do the things that I do. I appreciate my friends even though I never say it out loud. I appreciate the people around me even though I don't say it out. I just don't know how to express it. Perhaps growing up with a family where expressions of love and affection were rarely shown, has taught me to be "overly-defensive/highly egoistic" or "a cold person". I don't mean to say that my family don't show affections and etc, it's just that they show it in a different way, or indirectly that is.

It has left me with no idea how to show affections and gratitude. Which is why the way I show it, is through writing. I admit. I'm better at writing out my true feelings than saying them out. It takes a whole lot of courage for me to say how I feel.

To the friend (you know who you are and if you do read this post - to protect your privacy, I shall not name any names.) and all my other friends who reads this post, I want to make a public apology if I've said anything that hurt your feelings. Being human, I have my flaws and I hope I won't repeat the things that I did.

"It takes a friend to understand a friend." You may go, huh? what? Well, don't be like that. Because if you really get the meaning/this message of my phrase, that means you have a good/best friend around you.

I also want to emphasize that although I've hurt a lot of people around me, my actions are sincere. What I do, I do with my heart. I put effort and even if I'm tired, I would not trade another day for the things I do for both my friends and my family. =)

And finally, thank you. Thank you for being a great friend.

Sally's Treat & Birthday

Pictures Courtesy of Pam! Without her, this would be a pictureless blog post.

Sally brought us Damai Puri Resort
THANK YOU SALLY! *BIG HUG* :D

Pic grabbed from the internet cos we didn't manage to take picture here. The reason: Because we want to hide. The room was only for 2 people and there were 5 of us! haha~

uh ew. sorry not very good in posing like this. lol.

um yea. told you so. hahahahhaa.

Pamela my teman bergila and we are the background "dancer" in carol's camwhore picture!

Camwhore while waiting for our chance to sneak inside. shhh!

And enter the pool! :D

It was nice to play but the water kept going in my ear and nose. T_T Hate that part the most.

lol the 'love' pose and sexy legs...

I love pics like these THE MOST cos all of us are in it. *heart*

daughter, son-in-law, mummy ( my 2nd family) awesomeness!

Dearest daughter and me!

weeeeeeeeeeeeee~!

Before we go off for our Dinner...

Dinner time. all of us pretty girls! :D

T_T don't know why this simple picture makes me wanna cry T_T
I think it's because I miss them and also because I don't want my Uni Life to end.

make a wish babe! :) :) may your wishes come true! :D

Honestly if words can explain how awesome these few days was, I wish there is a word to express it but there isn't. All I can say is the I LOVE my friends so much and I DON'T WANT my university life to end =(

Thank you so so so so so much to Sally for bringing us here. These fond memories shall remain with me forever.

It's a bit sad though, I'm happy to be there and sad because in just few months we will go our own ways, yes, as sad as it sounds, it's reality. I don't want to face reality but it is how it is. T_T Ugh why am I so emo?! T____________T

Sorry for the delay for this post. I've been away in Kuching so couldn't update.

Oh dear, I think the hang out I had with my friends has made me quite emo. I have to stop writing now. It's late and I is very the emo now. Byes!

Goodbyes are never easy

As we bid farewell to one of our housemate, friend and "sister", it made me realise how much time left we will have in our University.


In less than 6 months, we will go our own ways. We don't know what the future holds. It makes me so sad though I don't show it much. I really (times infinity) hope that we will still keep in contact with each other. That we will always find time for each other. It's a bit early to say this but I just want to say it anyways. haha..

Dear Chai Yung,

I hope you will get a job here in Kuching. I pray hard that you will get a job in Ernst and Young. You've been a wonderful helpful, cute, great listener and sweet friend. I'm so glad to have met you and I really hope to see you again.

Those pics you upload in facebook make me emo! T_T boo!!

I want to write more but I am so emo now I cannot write.. lol. sounds like I'm exaggerating but really, I'm not. =/

ok, to be continued...

I wait for Pam's picture then I update more.

Until then, toodles!

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Just a few random pics. Some things we do before Chai Yung return to Sibu.

We went to damai. Pics are quite limited because they are all from my handphone. :P

Was bored waiting for them kayaking. lol.


It was so HOT! so hide under umbrella while waiting for them. :P
It's a rule for me. Camwhore only when I'm bored. and thus this pic.

And dinner at Kampung Buntal. Best seafood and cheap too! :D



Played the "basketball game" at Hock Lee. (No pictures for this cos we were too busy playing. lol)

Put your hands up and wave it like u just don't care!

I am finally freeeeee from exams! :D

Breathe in the 'feeling' of freedom

Sorry to all to all those who are still having your exams, I really need to write this post! I wish you all the best and don't lose your motivation to study. If there's some time left to study, just make full use of your time.

It has been, by far, the most hectic weeks of my University Life. Accounting Theory is all about reading, reading and more reading. If you're going to take Accounting Theory next semester, please take my advice to study from the begining of the semester to avoid rushing and stressing out at the end of the semester.

My lovely companion during exam period. :)
Sorry though, I shall not be needing you till winter semester.

I've never work so hard for any of my exams ever! Barely had enough sleep. Was so scared I'm going to fail T___T I even stayed up till 6am ok! (Effect of Ginseng Coffee) That was how scared I was.

Overall, I'm quite pleased with 2 of my final papers but not so pleased for my first paper. I believe that I will pass all my subjects this semester. I must put all my faith and trust in God. Amen :)

I have a whole lot of things to do. So far the start of freedom began with a nice, good long four hours of sleep. lol. And then Monopoly at night! :D


All thanks to Steph. It's quite a nice game but I get bored with it easily. :S It's just me. Seriously not quite a business student at all. boo!

Ok back to Uni Talk. I can't believe that I'm reaching the end of my 3 years of study. Some of my friends are going to graduate soon. To all those who are in your final semester, I know I'll miss all of you and I know it's a bit fast for me to say this since some of you haven't even sit for any of my finals paper yet! Iol. Chai Yung, I'll miss our laughing and crying, me and you emo-ing together and I really hope you'll get a job here in Kuching. :( I suddenly realise how time flies when you're going to graduate.

All of a sudden, I don't want my University Life to end!! I used to say I can't wait to graduate but seriously, now I wish I have more time. From now on, I should cherish every single, happy and sufferings altogether moments of my University Life. Oh gosh I feel so sadddddddd!! Just one and half more semester more to go! (Including Winter Semester)

I guess this post is a mixture of sadness and happy-ness.

Okay I'm don't know what else to blog about. So I'm off to do the things I've been refraining myself to do - watch WongFu Productions videos! And Mall World! hahaha Maureen, wait for me yea.. So many new stuff already.Tatas for now! =)

For What It's Worth

Today I went to Lions Nursing Home. Organized by CPA Club.

The experience I had there is beyond words. I visited another Old Folks Home before called Home of Peace. But the experience I had there was really different compared to what I experienced at the Lions Home.

The first thing I did was the usual thing that Volunteers do. Cleaning up and etc. This needs no further explanation.

The thing that had a huge impact on me the most is the feeding the Grandma moments and pushing the wheelchair moments. I've been having flashbacks on what I did today. This will be my very honest feelings so please excuse me if you find anything I say offensive or heartless. I also must remind you that I am no angel.

When I fed the Grandma today, which is kolok mee by the way, I remembered thinking "oh dear, so hard to cut this noodle. And why not I get to feed rice or something?" And then I got annoyed and incredibly angry with myself.

My good side went "What on earth are you thinking?! How can you be so utterly heartless, Amanda?! Have you no feelings? Do you have any idea what it's like to be in the Grandma's shoes? To be so helpless and frustrated because you want to do things yourself but can't cos you have to depend on others. "

I am a selfish person. No doubt about that. It's a good thing I have my conscience to remind myself why am I doing this. It's for Charity and to show them our love.

I also remember getting super frustrated because I can't understand what the Grandma is talking about. I end up answering yes to everything the Grandma says. Gosh! T_____T What if I said yes to something negative she said about herself? :( HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO STUPID?!

I'm supposed to feel good after doing this Charity work but for some reasons, I feel guilty. My selfish side is damn shameful and 100% incredibly spiteful! Being human is stupid sometimes. Seriously!

I saw the others going outside since the other grandmas don't need help feeding them. After I finished feeding the first grandma, I tried talking to her. I offered to bring her more water since she finished hers quite fast. I couldn't leave the Grandma No.1 so I stayed back and tried to talk to her again despite the fact that I barely understand what is she saying. :(

The second grandma, I didn't finish feeding her because the bus came and I have to go home. I remembered seeing one of my friends who haven't finish feeding one of the Grandma and continued on feeding her. She didn't mind staying back to feed her and follow other CPA member back. I salute her. I really do. I didn't do that. I walked away instead. And that is one of the shameful things that I did. I wished now that I continued on feeding her but of course, it's too late. I walked away because I really needed to go to the toilet badly and there, as you can see, once again, the selfish me. It's a downright embarassing and deceitful act.

It's all in the past now. What has happened today. What I did today. I wish I could turn back time. To change all things that needs to be changed. To help the grandmas and grandpas as much as I can.

There is one thing that I really enjoyed doing though. The singing and trying to cheer up the grandmas and grandpas. I was really happy to see that one of the grandma smiling widely at us as we sing. :D

Oh yea, one of the grandma is a Roman Catholic and she started singing one of our church songs and halfway through her singing, she started crying. It was depressing yet truly saddening to see her in that way. And she mentioned something about dying. I had no idea how to react. I was speechless. I remembered hating her children though. But perhaps I shouldn't really blame them. I need not be so judgemental.

Nevertheless, despite all of this, I think this was a very meaningful experience for me. From now on, I'm going to learn to be more selfless, to be more considerate of others. I hope I get another chance to go to the Nursing Home again. I want to do things correctly next time. I will even dance for them to cheer them up. I don't care how stupid I will look.

For what it's worth, I sincerely hope that I will be given the chance again to be able to give the Grandma and Grandpas all the love and care in this world.

Final Year

Ok obviously I quit the 30 days challenge. lol. I'm way to busy to blog about that.

I have no actual things to blog about. I want to complain about my workload but then that'll bore you cos Uni Life is rather routine like. Everything is the same. Tutorials, Assignments and more work. :(

Well it's already the mid-term break so I finally have "some" time to blog. Actually I should start working on my assignments but sigh. yeah. I wanna rest first. It has been a loooonnng week! T__T My exams was SUPER tough. I just wish that just once I will say that my exam is okay. Just once. Cos I realised I never said it's easy.

So as most of you know I have a subject this semester that requires me to blog. When my friends told me we are to blog I thought "oh really?! Awesome!!" That's what I thought to myself. I wasn't very worried cos I love to write and I have a blog and all that. But I was so wrong! I can sit in front of the laptop for hours and have no ideas how to start. :( I will have ideas flowing through my head but no idea how to start. For some reasons, the introduction is crucial cos it attracts readers to read. So yea, that's why I spent hours thinking how to start.

I can't seem to write any "intellectual" kind of posts. I think whether this is because throughout my school years, for my English essays, I will always write stories and not the kind that requires points. You know, the kind of essays that goes:

The school has been facing problem with students who "play truant". Explain the reasons caused by this and how the school can solve this issue.

I always have trouble selecting this kind of question because I will have no ideas and I will always opt for the one that requires me to write a story. If I did attempt such question, I would get lower grades that I will get for writing stories. :/ So most of the time I pray hard that my teacher will give a question that requires us to write stories. :P

There's also one thing that my school teachers used to ask us to do when in Secondary School. And that is summarise. I'm VERY BAD at summarising. lol. I like to write things in detail. No idea why but I do. I'm still learning how to NOT write a whole lot of junk in my work. I think it's also useful for paraphrasing when I come to Uni. The whole no plagiarism rule so yea, that's important.

Ok why am I writing about this. Perhaps it's the aftermath of writing my blog entry. I think I won't get a good grade this time. I don't even know if I fulfilled the requirements of the blog entry.

My blog post shall end abruptly cos I don't know how to end it. lol.

Ok obviously I quit the 30 days challenge. lol. I'm way to busy to blog about that.

I have no actual things to blog about. I want to complain about my workload but then that'll bore you cos Uni Life is rather routine like. Everything is the same. Tutorials, Assignments and more work. :(

Well it's already the mid-term break so I finally have "some" time to blog. Actually I should start working on my assignments but sigh. yeah. I wanna rest first. It has been a loooonnng week! T__T My exams was SUPER tough. I just wish that just once I will say that my exam is okay. Just once. Cos I realised I never said it's easy.

So as most of you know I have a subject this semester that requires me to blog. When my friends told me we are to blog I thought "oh really?! Awesome!!" That's what I thought to myself. I wasn't very worried cos I love to write and I have a blog and all that. But I was so wrong! I can sit in front of the laptop for hours and have no ideas how to start. :( I will have ideas flowing through my head but no idea how to start. For some reasons, the introduction is crucial cos it attracts readers to read. So yea, that's why I spent hours thinking how to start.

I can't seem to write any "intellectual" kind of posts. I think whether this is because throughout my school years, for my English essays, I will always write stories and not the kind that requires points. You know, the kind of essays that goes:

The school has been facing problem with students who "play truant". Explain the reasons caused by this and how the school can solve this issue.

I always have trouble selecting this kind of question because I will have no ideas and I will always opt for the one that requires me to write a story. If I did attempt such question, I would get lower grades that I will get for writing stories. :/ So most of the time I pray hard that my teacher will give a question that requires us to write stories. :P

There's also one thing that my school teachers used to ask us to do when in Secondary School. And that is summarise. I'm VERY BAD at summarising. lol. I like to write things in detail. No idea why but I do. I'm still learning how to NOT write a whole lot of junk in my work. I think it's also useful for paraphrasing when I come to Uni. The whole plagiarism so yea, that's important.

Ok why am I writing about this. Perhaps it's the aftermath of writing my blog entry. I think I won't get a good grade this time. I don't even know if I fulfilled the requirements of the blog entry.

This blog entry shall end abruptly cos I don't know how to end it. lol.

Phew!

I can hardly believe my eyes when I saw that I passed all my modules for last semester!

Here's my reaction:

Eyes scanning results. *preparing self for the dreadful N*

And realises all pass. I passed all? *Blinks* *Blinks*

OH WOW! I passed all!!!!!!!!!! LOL.

*Starts thanking God repeatedly in my heart*

I had a mixture all feelings when I read my results.

I'm really sad that the subject that I aim for Distinction, I just get a Pass and moreover, it's just one more point to Credit FML. T_T (FYI, the F is doesnt stand for the you know what word. lol. I don't like the word. So it stands for urm, freak. okay that's lame but whatever, you get what i mean. )

Then I'm also grateful because I really seriously thought I'm going to fail that subject. Haih.

Then, I become sad again cos I wish and I know I would've done better if I work much harder. Argh! Every semester I feel like this! I'm really tired of it.

Therefore, for this coming semester, I promise myself that I will work 10times harder! I'm serious.

Don't give me that look of disbelief. -__- ok fine. T___T That's quite hard for me. But this time I'm determined! With a little bit of determination, I KNOW i can do it! I know all of you out there can do too! (For those who don't reach their target). So don't give up.

Let's work harder! :D

London, Paris, NY ( no la, no NY)

Oh wow! I think I broke my own record of not blogging in a loooonnnng time!

Anyways as I promised a month +++ ago, I will blog about my London and Paris trip. I don't know how am I going to start because it's been too long since The Holiday Trip that I've forgotten some interesting things about the trip. So here goes:

London

I think I only went to about 4 of these places.

Okay I really don't know how to blog about London. I'll be random then ok? Okay! =) (just an excuse cos I've forgotten most of the things that I did in London T_T)

The famous Trafalgar Square.
Hmm actually quite a horrendous picture. what with the dark sky and everything. lol. But nevermind, it'll do! :)

With one of the Lions at Trafalgar Square

In front of Westminster Abbey

And all things London-ey!

You know, you know.. ;)

London Tower!

Hello Mr. Policeman & Big Ben.

Big Ben at night. I have to lean far out of the taxi to take this picture. T_T

BUCKINGHAM PALACE! :D
So many people because people are waiting for the changing of the guards performance/session.

Gorgeous statues

Awwww!


Say: awww again! :P

*ok la to be continued cos I'm too lazy to blog already*