Emotional Roller Coaster Ride

I haven't played Facebook for 2 days now.

I can't say it's because I can stand the temptation of not going to Facebook. That's because I'd be lying if I said so. The truth is - I asked my friend to block my Facebook so that I can't enter Facebook. Yeap. I really did that.

I must say, it helps me a lot. I get things done faster. No more procrastinating. Which is officially my middle name. Cos I've been procrastinating a lot lately =(

I think I'm suffering from mood swings too. I can be happy and joyful first and dull and sad the next moment. This is not very like me and I hate being like this. Perhaps it's the effect that the final exams is just around the corner. Or perhaps I'm just suddenly getting tired of life again. (It happens quite often but the feeling will fade away.)

Today at library, we had a 'situation'. Pam and I thought there's gas leaking in the Uni's library. *paronoid :x* And so we informed the Librarians. Turns out, it's just rubbish that some idiot didn't throw. Ew!! =_= But anyways, put that aside, I remembered thinking, what if the library were to explode, what if I actually died there and then *choi choi touch wood*, what are the things I would regret not having to do? I kept telling myself, I'm too young to die, I'm too young to die. There are many things in life that I have not tried yet. Eg: Right now I'm obsessed with make up but I can only buy a few at a time :( I also want to travel the world. I want to go to Paris, UK and argh basically, anywhere around the world. In other words, I want to go to places! :D I'm already 21 and actually that's not a young age anymore (no offence to those who are older than 21 >_< ) Oh Oh! and I also want to go bungee jumping. ( even though I think when I'm really at that place I'll probably end up shaking all over and run away T_T)

*sigh* Sometimes all it takes is something uh... unexpected(?) to make you reflect about your life. This rather weird 'situation' triggered something in my mind and that is I should just enjoy life to the fullest. But, alas, right now, I don't feel like enjoying. I feel like curling up in a ball at the corner. Of course, I wouldn't really do that. It's something I tend to imagine myself doing every time I feel depressed or anything.

ANYWAYS..... enough writing nonsense. This is actually my first time writing like this for everyone to see. Usually I keep posts like this in a secret place.

This might probably will be my last post till final exams is over. Or maybe I will update again. I don't want people coming back here to check my blog and see Emo post here. -_-

Bye bye and I'm off to arange all my notes so I can study.