2013

Ok, i just realised this poor blog has been abandoned for so long. Almost a year to be exact.

I've been busy with so many things in my life. work, work and work. And life. And a person.

And thinking about future even more often nowadays.

And worrying how things will be like for our best-friendship.

And how things will change.

I don't really know the purpose of writing this blog post. I think I just want to update it a little bit.

Things are already changing around me.

I've begin to make plans for the future. I begin to think that I should learn to improve myself in performing my  job instead of complaining. Over and over again..

And so that shall be my new year's resolution. One of it anyways. I've got a really long list but I shall leave you all in suspense. lol.

Till then, I shall try to update my blog more often. :)

I got a job!

Okay honestly I should have written this post 2 weeks ago cause that's when I got a job offer! Although the salary is suppperrr low, I have to be grateful for it since they're going to sponsor my CPA paper. Don't know what made me changed my mind that this is what I want to do. Anyways decide later or regret later! I'm thinking of switching job though after this. Probably work in a bank or something. I know you're giving me a look of dismay because everyone knows that working in a bank means long hours of work. but seriously I think I need to earn more. It's funny how fate has it's own mind of it's own. A week after I got my job offer, Crowe Horwath called me up for an interview, needless to say I screwed up my chance of getting in that company. I was so shocked that I got the call that I stupidly let it slip that I've got a job already and plus I've signed the offer letter from another company already damn it! But after I talk to few of my friends about it, they urged me to call up the company and I went for the interview. I think my sub conscience took over because I think that as seriously THE WORST INTERVIEW I've ever gone through. I stuttered and was completely ugh I don't want to even think about it anymore. An even funnier thing happened because the next week, I met the guy who went for the interview with me that day( he was a Swinburne student as well, i don't know him but he was in one of my classes last time) with at The Spring and I asked him whether he got the job or not and he said yes, the lady called him and he is going to sign the offer letter soon fml. T_T So there the story of my life. T_T I would be lying if I say that I am not disappointed. I mean the difference in salary is RM500 and I totally ruined my chance. Sigh. Anyways, I'm trying not to be discouraged. I will still try to get a job there in the future, right one I have to focus on gaining experience. I WIll NOT GIVE UP *determined* Well I'm going to start working next month and honestly I am sooooo excited and I can't wait to start. 4th of June please come faster. I was thinking about uploading some pictures with this post but very hard to do since I'm blogging for Dad's iPad. :s Ok I want to go watch Korean drama now. This is what a TEMPORARY unemployed person always do. :) tatas!

It's Harder than I thought

I've been really busy lately because... I've been hunting for a job.

Oh gosh it is sooooo hard!!! I've been unemployed for a month now. I've got no luck in getting a job so far. I sent out God knows how many resumes already.

This is frustrating and depressing. ARGH! I shall not say anymore. I'm making myself more depressed than ever.

Let's talk about - Future

Heeeellllooo everyone.

Right now I'm at my father's office. Doing nothing at the moment. :S

*sigh

I haven't got a job for now. #unemployed. I hope it will not turn out to be #foreverunemployed

I'm going to UK in March. A short family holiday. As much as I'm looking forward to this trip, I'm worried that I can't get a job :( It's not easy. My results isn't marvelous until people would employ me on the spot or actually wait for me till I come back from my holidays. I knew these were the consequences I have to face yet, haih. Alright let's not get too emotional. Sorry that was the 'worry-wart' talking.

Anyways, I've been through lots of things in my mind. About what I want to do with my life. I don't want to be an accountant yet this is the career path I've chosen in the first place. So like it or not it's the path I have to at least try. This is why they say, you need an ambition or an aim for that matter, in life. Cause if you have nothing to aim for, life is just utterly pointless. I have an aim well a dream actually, and that is to be a writer. What is this - dream. I've been talking about it since forever but no actions taken to further this dream of mine. Sometimes I feel like this is no longer a dream of mine because I never take any actions to achieve it.

I knew I love to write and I knew that my English isn't perfect. I'm sure as you read this whole post you will find a few grammatical errors here and there. From primary school, I've already started to write but I tore my diary in a few pieces and threw it away before I got to secondary school. lol. It has too many awful memories and plus my idiot brother used to steal my diary and read it, that idiot! -_- grrr! But mind you I still remember those memories.

I want to write. Really I do. But there's no inspiration. So how can I? Honestly the truth is, I get inspiration everyday. But I don't know where and how to start. Sigh. I should start writing since I'm more free now as what my BFF said. I know. I should.

Being aimless in life is not a good thing. Somehow I understand why another of my BFF told me she still want to stay in university for just one more semester. She didn't want to graduate yet. At this moment, I'm feeling the same way.

OK have to go back to work now. Not exactly feeling that comfortable to blog in the office. no privacy lol. I feel as if my colleague is peeking at me (even though I know she isn't doing that), yet well, can't be too careful right? Gotta go. Belated B-day surprise post coming up next. And at the moment I'm reading an awesome book. Too good to put down. lol. So when I'm free I'm reading it. Thus I haven't been blogging lately. *confession Bye for now!

20th January

Twentieth of January 2012

The date I found out I've finally got through my 3 years of University Life.

It marks the end of my journey as a student and off to the working world.

The Learning Process never stops however.

Because I have to prepare myself to learn to face more challenges ahead.

Challenges I'm suddenly ready to face as soon as I found out I passed all subjects.

It gave me the confidence that I can do this. Come what may.

Oh I know, I've so many things to learn.

Learn to cope with stress, pressure, be more optimistic and controlling my emotions.

To learn to not care too much because a good friend of mine once told me, don't bother thinking too much. What's the point right? :)

As much as I love University Life,

I know I must go on with the next chapter. ;)

Now I have to learn to let go of the past and embrace the future.

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I won't expect you to be good to me so...

Accounting & Auditing world. Here I come!

Two Four

And, finally, I'm 24 years old. Not embarassed at all. Come on, let's face reality. We all get old eventually. I should quit denying it despite the fact that I don't like it.

Ah yes, the age I should graduate from University.

The age I should learn to be more grown up.

The age I should stop playing the sims social hah! Not a chance. LOL! :P Sorry, I still love that game too much to stop. Well, unless I'm too busy with my work then what choice have I got.

The age I should get my driving license T___T Gosh so embarassing! I should have gotten a driving license AGES ago!

The age I should learn to improve on my weaknesses.

The age I should learn not to expect too much in order to avoid disappointment (Yes, I'm such a coward :S )

The age I should learn to overcome stress and not let stress 'overcome' me.

And most importantly, the age I will leave my youth years behind me and prepare to work. T_T

Where will the future take me, I don't know. I'm as scared as hell but what can I do, I've got to face it one way or another. I'm not ready to be honest. But if I wait till the day I'm ready, I don't think that day will ever come. . So I better just face it when it's time to face it. I'm going to go for my very first interview on 16th of January. No matter what, I must be prepared for it. I don't want to end up totally clueless and stutter when I answer the questions. Please God, guide me through it. I put all my trust in You. Amen.

Out with the old, In with the New

New blogskin everyone!

It's a little different from the usual blogskin. Usually I just grab a ready-made blogskin. Now I decide to try to make it look more, urm, original? Well, actually it's not that original since I took the wallpaper from deviantart. lol. I shall remember to credit that person later. :)

Thought the wallpaper looks a bit dull so I edited it with XiuXiu. Best photo editer ever! Although I have to face some limitations to it since it's in Chinese, lol. I wish they would create an English version. Perhaps someday huh?

Tell me what you think about my blogskin. Does it look alright? Do you find it hard reading some of the things especially the About Me section and etc? If you do, let me know then I'll make the necessary changes. :)

Farewell 1B

Here's a post I wrote when we first moved in. Gosh, time flies. *Click here* Just so you know, we actually broke rule number 4, 5 and 6! LOL. Oh and I should warn you that this post is combined with camwhore pictures. lol. We were so innocent back then!

As we bid farewell to 1B, I realise that we also bid farewell to our Uni years.


2 and a half years in that apartment. How can we forget all those memories?

This is the place where we crammed for our final exam...

The picture on the bottom right, yes, that's my studying place. very messy i know.

Couldn't resist taking pictures of us (I'm excluded since I'm the camera lady. lol.) cramming for our final exam.

This is the place where we...

*Do our make up
*Do our facial routine
*Helped our friends with their make up (remember that time we helped Dara's friends with their make up - well, I wasn't helping much. Just helped by checking the eye shadow colour. Applying the make up is all Steph and Chai Yung work.)
*Blow Dry our hair
*Curl our hair
*Do our random hairstyles when we're bored (Chai Yung!)

This is where Steph, Sally and I (teddy too) would share our crazy moments together, share our secrets, quarrel, argue, everything...

*sigh* I will miss this bed ;(

And finally.. This is the place where we...

*Prepared so many yummy food
*Made KimChi for the FIRST TIME!
*My friends prepared meals for me cos they knew my health wasn't doing so well ^^ You all are so awesome *heart*
*Cooked Porridge for anyone who isn't feeling well
*Spent so much time cleaning the kitchen too (EW!)
*Left so many expired canned food in the cupboard and end up we have to throw them (students, sigh, they never learn do they? tsk tsk.. :P)

Oh we had so many, many, many memories.. We celebrated teddy's Birthday, Pamela's Birthday, rehearsed for Capstone 1 presentation (Steph and I) and SO much more!

Well, 1B of Kenyalang Court, I had lots of memories together with you. It's time to leave and prepare to work. The thought of working scares me a lot. I wasn't scared at first but I am now. With the experience I had from University Life, I hope I'm prepared to work. Writing this post makes me sad again, somehow. =(

I've got to go now. Time for bed. Good night!

I won!

I can't believe that I actually won a 10% discount voucher(yes, i know only 10%) from West Fashion Online! :D

So yea, that'll explains the previous post. I shall use it when I get my very first paycheck. :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH,
WEST FASHION ONLINE!

I wish I can be Forever 21...

Have you ever heard of Forever 21?

Well, honestly, I heard about Forever 21 from my BFF and I know she ADORES all items from this brand. When she showed me a bag that she bought from Forever 21, I loved it too!

I'm from Sarawak and I'm really disappointed that there is no Forever 21 shop here. :( I remembered there was this time when my friends and I wanted to buy a Birthday gift for our BFF but we couldn't find the brand that she wants ( which is Forever 21, of course.)

Then I came across this site:

www.westfashion.net

Here, you can purchase any items that you want from Forever 21! :D

It's easier if you register with them though..

With the shopping cart tool, just click the item that you want from the website and then 'click' Add to Cart

Like this!

And then all your items will be shown on the top right hand corner..


I really like the way everything is grouped into categories like this. It's very organised isn't it? Easy browsing this way coz u don't have to keep clicking that 'next' button till u see something that u like..

Honestly I've never bought anything from this online store but I can tell 100% that I can trust this website. I know you're thinking, why do you trust this store so much? Wellll.....

I don't know about you but these two things from this website was convincing enough for me! :)

I don't want to say much cause I want YOU to find out about this website more. okay, you can stop reading my blog post now and head over to www.westfashion.net and start shopping!!

Farewell

This post is specially dedicated to my loyal, obedient dog, Ah Bi

Dear Ah Bi,

I still remember how you became my pet. It was a few days or a few weeks after we moved to our new house. You were there among the grass. Always poking your cute head out from among the tall grass. I noticed you & I thought you were simply adorable!! From that day onwards, I always walk outside and give you food. Your favourite of all was chicken bones. You were talented in eating chicken bones. You ate carefully, chewed the insides of the bone first then later spit out the sharp edges. People say, don't feed bones to your dog. But you were a pro at eating bones! You also happen to be a survivor, you fell sick a couple of times and had a few near death experience yet you fought really hard to stay alive.

I remember how you like people to pet your head, How you Love people scratching behind your ear. :)

I remember the way you always come and wag your tail to greet us when we reach home. I love the way you do that. I was really sad you weren't there to do that today. I miss you already :(

I remember how you bit the Meter Reader cause you thought he was going to hurt your puppies. And dad had to send him to the clinic for a shot.

I remember those three puppies you first had! Oh gosh they were so cute!! And some of them looks like you. I remember how excited and happy I was. It was amazing. :)

I'm sorry we had to put you to sleep. You were suffering way too much. I guess we just can't bear to see you suffer much longer. It is time for you to go to a better place. I wish I'm there to send you off. But I know, I don't think I can handle it. I might even stop the doctor from putting you to sleep. When I heard what my dad said on the phone when I woke up this morning, I hoped that I was just having a nightmare. I even went back to sleep hoping it really was a nightmare. Unfortunately, it wasn't! :(

I want you to know that you've been amazing. For 13 years I've had you as my pet, I shall always, always remember how special you were to me. It is very surprising that I didn't cry yet. Perhaps part of me don't want to accept it or perhaps realization just hasn't sink in yet. Or Perhaps it is because I knew that you are no longer suffering. Whichever reason it is, I want you to know that no matter what, I will always love you.

Thank you Ah Bi for being my faithful, loving dog, I love you very much and you will be missed.

Exam Period

I know I haven't been blogging in ages! I feel like this is the longest since I last updated my blog, sorry dear blog.

The last time I blogged was in September. Seems like I've lost the inspiration to write. The last "blog" I wrote was for my Industry Consulting Project a.k.a. Final Year Project. Don't get me started on how stressful it was.. Urgh!

Anyways, I'm about to sit for the final 2 papers of my University life. On the 13 and 14 of December to be exact. Therefore, I felt like this is something to blog about. Yea, wow rite? 3 years passed by just like that.

Also means I'm going to move out.
BFFs going to move out.
#damnemo

Honestly, I don't really have the mood to study. But have to force myself. I don't want my university life to end. But gotta move on with life huh? =(

On a completely unrelated note or maybe related la, I don't know.

Here's some pictures of us while we wait for our noodle at the INFAMOUS-NEED-TO-WAIT-ONE-HOUR-PLUS-PLACE.

You only get to see pictures like this on my blog cos I won't post them up on facebook.

pam

me

Steph

my bro - =_=" haih. asked him to show bored faced he smiled instead

Chaiyung - control 'ayu' lol

Finally, Teddy emo. cos I'm emo. pfft.

Okay, even though I really want to continue to blog, I've got to continue studying this:

yes, exactly how my Advanced Finance textbook looks like.

Haih, regrets taking finance as my minor now. I knew I would regret it when I select it as my minor. God knows why I still pick it. #imustbecrazy

I should blog more right? I just realised I was pretty active in blogging in 2009.

Right, well. ADVANCED FINANCE! bye now!

Teddy's Birthday lolol

Today, 14 September 2011, we celebrated our dearest Teddy's Birthday! :D He is four years old..

Everyone, please say Happy Birthday to Teddy. hahaaha. :) Teddy shall thank all of you with his warm and nice hug :D


Here are the proud parents! Preparing Teddy's cake and etc. hahahah.. while teddy looks on excitedly!

Teddy with his B-day Present (the Hush Puppy) and Birthday cake, hehe!

Yes he is the luckiest son and grandchild on earth huh? :)))

MAKE A WISH moment! *heart*

lol the daddy have to help to blow out the candles for him cos it's pretty dangerous for a baby.

On this special day, I would like to say a few words to my dearest grandson.. hehe

Thank you for being there when I'm down.
Thank you for being such a cute teddy baby :)
No Thank You for being a naughty baby lol..
I only knew your existence when I moved to the apartment in 2009, your parents la, hide you from me. LOL! *inside joke*
And lastly, you are the best little grandchild EVER! *hugs and love you lots*






This post wouldn't be complete without a family picture. :D Memories captured in a picture. heh! I added the time stamp so we would remember the time and date forever..

HAPPY
BIRTHDAY
TEDDY!

AND MAY YOU HAVE MANY MORE BIRTHDAYS TO COME!

LOVE,
Amanda
a.k.a. your grandmother (lol)

Friendship

Hello blog.

I know I haven't been blogging lately. I just completed my winter semester. It has been, horribly, incredibly exhausting! My health has its ups and downs. Right now, I just hope everything will be fine. That's all I'm praying hard for. And for my results as well.

Anyways, there's a purpose why I'm writing. No. 1 cos I haven't been writing for since, wow, I can't even remember when I updated my blog. My gosh, has it been that long? o.o And No. 2, cos of friendship.

I have always valued friendship (and my family but that's another story. Now I shall talk about frienship first). I say things that I don't mean when I'm tired and because of this, it caused my friend to be hurt. (you know who you are and I'm sorry for it) She forgived me but I know she is still hurt. I know how sad and disappointed she is so I'm going to give her some time to cool down.

I never meant to do the things that I do. I appreciate my friends even though I never say it out loud. I appreciate the people around me even though I don't say it out. I just don't know how to express it. Perhaps growing up with a family where expressions of love and affection were rarely shown, has taught me to be "overly-defensive/highly egoistic" or "a cold person". I don't mean to say that my family don't show affections and etc, it's just that they show it in a different way, or indirectly that is.

It has left me with no idea how to show affections and gratitude. Which is why the way I show it, is through writing. I admit. I'm better at writing out my true feelings than saying them out. It takes a whole lot of courage for me to say how I feel.

To the friend (you know who you are and if you do read this post - to protect your privacy, I shall not name any names.) and all my other friends who reads this post, I want to make a public apology if I've said anything that hurt your feelings. Being human, I have my flaws and I hope I won't repeat the things that I did.

"It takes a friend to understand a friend." You may go, huh? what? Well, don't be like that. Because if you really get the meaning/this message of my phrase, that means you have a good/best friend around you.

I also want to emphasize that although I've hurt a lot of people around me, my actions are sincere. What I do, I do with my heart. I put effort and even if I'm tired, I would not trade another day for the things I do for both my friends and my family. =)

And finally, thank you. Thank you for being a great friend.

In a blink of an eye

In a blink of an eye, time pasts faster than we know it, faster than we want it to.

In a blink of an eye, we are sucked into the adult world.

In a blink of an eye, we worry about our future, what will become of us, what will happen.

In a blink of an eye, we realised our parents are getting older and it's time for us to act and be more grown up than before.

In a blink of an eye, a lot of things happen around me and makes me wonder why it happens. Yet, it makes all the changes in me. It has in fact, made me stronger. I need to be stronger to take care of my parents, to take care of my brother.

In a blink of an eye, I would graduate soon and see what awaits in the days/months/years ahead.

In a blink of an eye, I would see the world differently than how I see it before I graduate.

In a blink of an eye, I find myself growing up and wishing it would stop because adulthood is so much more harder than I've ever imagine. I have not even finish my University Life yet I felt that I should be an adult now. And yes, albeit the fact that I AM an adult already since I've in University now.

In a blink of an eye, I would be making serious, drastic, life changing decisions.

Am I ready for these? Honestly the thoughts scares me. Every piece of my bone, every piece of my organs - I'm scared. Every single part of me.

The responsibility as a elder sister to my brother, the responsibility as a sister, the responsibility as a daughter, a responsibility as a friend and if there's a possibility, the responsibility as a girlfriend/wife - Am I ready for all these?

Am
I
ready?

Sally's Treat & Birthday

Pictures Courtesy of Pam! Without her, this would be a pictureless blog post.

Sally brought us Damai Puri Resort
THANK YOU SALLY! *BIG HUG* :D

Pic grabbed from the internet cos we didn't manage to take picture here. The reason: Because we want to hide. The room was only for 2 people and there were 5 of us! haha~

uh ew. sorry not very good in posing like this. lol.

um yea. told you so. hahahahhaa.

Pamela my teman bergila and we are the background "dancer" in carol's camwhore picture!

Camwhore while waiting for our chance to sneak inside. shhh!

And enter the pool! :D

It was nice to play but the water kept going in my ear and nose. T_T Hate that part the most.

lol the 'love' pose and sexy legs...

I love pics like these THE MOST cos all of us are in it. *heart*

daughter, son-in-law, mummy ( my 2nd family) awesomeness!

Dearest daughter and me!

weeeeeeeeeeeeee~!

Before we go off for our Dinner...

Dinner time. all of us pretty girls! :D

T_T don't know why this simple picture makes me wanna cry T_T
I think it's because I miss them and also because I don't want my Uni Life to end.

make a wish babe! :) :) may your wishes come true! :D

Honestly if words can explain how awesome these few days was, I wish there is a word to express it but there isn't. All I can say is the I LOVE my friends so much and I DON'T WANT my university life to end =(

Thank you so so so so so much to Sally for bringing us here. These fond memories shall remain with me forever.

It's a bit sad though, I'm happy to be there and sad because in just few months we will go our own ways, yes, as sad as it sounds, it's reality. I don't want to face reality but it is how it is. T_T Ugh why am I so emo?! T____________T

Sorry for the delay for this post. I've been away in Kuching so couldn't update.

Oh dear, I think the hang out I had with my friends has made me quite emo. I have to stop writing now. It's late and I is very the emo now. Byes!

Home

I'm home! Hello Sibu! :)

I've got lots of things to blog about. But these posts are still pending cos I've got not enough nice pictures! Argh! I'm waiting for Pamela to send me some. Lol she's the camera girl. Sure got lots of lovely pictures.

So yea, I'll write as soon as I got them pictures!

In the meantime, here's a picture of Teddy relaxing at ______
*to be revealed in the next post* :P


Kinda shows how I am like at the moment... =)

Goodbyes are never easy

As we bid farewell to one of our housemate, friend and "sister", it made me realise how much time left we will have in our University.


In less than 6 months, we will go our own ways. We don't know what the future holds. It makes me so sad though I don't show it much. I really (times infinity) hope that we will still keep in contact with each other. That we will always find time for each other. It's a bit early to say this but I just want to say it anyways. haha..

Dear Chai Yung,

I hope you will get a job here in Kuching. I pray hard that you will get a job in Ernst and Young. You've been a wonderful helpful, cute, great listener and sweet friend. I'm so glad to have met you and I really hope to see you again.

Those pics you upload in facebook make me emo! T_T boo!!

I want to write more but I am so emo now I cannot write.. lol. sounds like I'm exaggerating but really, I'm not. =/

ok, to be continued...

I wait for Pam's picture then I update more.

Until then, toodles!

********UPDATED********

Just a few random pics. Some things we do before Chai Yung return to Sibu.

We went to damai. Pics are quite limited because they are all from my handphone. :P

Was bored waiting for them kayaking. lol.


It was so HOT! so hide under umbrella while waiting for them. :P
It's a rule for me. Camwhore only when I'm bored. and thus this pic.

And dinner at Kampung Buntal. Best seafood and cheap too! :D



Played the "basketball game" at Hock Lee. (No pictures for this cos we were too busy playing. lol)

Put your hands up and wave it like u just don't care!

I am finally freeeeee from exams! :D

Breathe in the 'feeling' of freedom

Sorry to all to all those who are still having your exams, I really need to write this post! I wish you all the best and don't lose your motivation to study. If there's some time left to study, just make full use of your time.

It has been, by far, the most hectic weeks of my University Life. Accounting Theory is all about reading, reading and more reading. If you're going to take Accounting Theory next semester, please take my advice to study from the begining of the semester to avoid rushing and stressing out at the end of the semester.

My lovely companion during exam period. :)
Sorry though, I shall not be needing you till winter semester.

I've never work so hard for any of my exams ever! Barely had enough sleep. Was so scared I'm going to fail T___T I even stayed up till 6am ok! (Effect of Ginseng Coffee) That was how scared I was.

Overall, I'm quite pleased with 2 of my final papers but not so pleased for my first paper. I believe that I will pass all my subjects this semester. I must put all my faith and trust in God. Amen :)

I have a whole lot of things to do. So far the start of freedom began with a nice, good long four hours of sleep. lol. And then Monopoly at night! :D


All thanks to Steph. It's quite a nice game but I get bored with it easily. :S It's just me. Seriously not quite a business student at all. boo!

Ok back to Uni Talk. I can't believe that I'm reaching the end of my 3 years of study. Some of my friends are going to graduate soon. To all those who are in your final semester, I know I'll miss all of you and I know it's a bit fast for me to say this since some of you haven't even sit for any of my finals paper yet! Iol. Chai Yung, I'll miss our laughing and crying, me and you emo-ing together and I really hope you'll get a job here in Kuching. :( I suddenly realise how time flies when you're going to graduate.

All of a sudden, I don't want my University Life to end!! I used to say I can't wait to graduate but seriously, now I wish I have more time. From now on, I should cherish every single, happy and sufferings altogether moments of my University Life. Oh gosh I feel so sadddddddd!! Just one and half more semester more to go! (Including Winter Semester)

I guess this post is a mixture of sadness and happy-ness.

Okay I'm don't know what else to blog about. So I'm off to do the things I've been refraining myself to do - watch WongFu Productions videos! And Mall World! hahaha Maureen, wait for me yea.. So many new stuff already.Tatas for now! =)